Twenty-Ten

Fashionably late I start my newyearsey post. And I am telling you. As much as 2009 was a year of change and new experiences for me... as much as I have grown and flourished... as much as that year will always have a special place in my heart... I am glad it is over. The new year, as arbitrary as it seems, marks a new time for me.

In 2009 I learned to accept the many blessings life has to offer, to be flexible and wait my turn, to enjoy the little things and remember why I love those I love. In twentyten I intend to take back some of the control I relinquished these past few months. Not to stop living for the present, but to increase efforts toward my future goals as well. Maybe put off a few fewer things, and be brave even more frequently.

I have been grateful for all the support I have received from my friends and family this year. I truly believe I needed to learn to let go and let others be there for me. But this year, I need to regain some of my self-reliance while not forgetting the lessons I have learned. Mostly I want to keep up the work on being who I am openly and unabashedly. Not doing what is expected but what seems right. This is my hope for twentyten.

My hope is that I will truly begin what I consider to be my adult life, an adult life which I have spent much of my youth needlessly apprehensive and downright scared of, and that I will propel it in the right direction that it may flourish and balance itself for years to come. This I hope for.