Looks like a day for a cup of tea. Looks like a day for a good book. It's a Jane Eyre type of day, though I'll probably wander elsewhere. ""Still indomitable was the reply -- "I care for myself. The more solitary, the more friendless, the more unsustained I am, the more I will respect myself."
And, if I'm honest, it looks like the day to bunker down in front of the tv at some point and watch cartoons.
I know I've been stuck on Stevens this week, but I connect so much with this line today: "Only the real can be unreal today, be hidden and alive."
I must confess that I see the gloominess of a day like today before I see the haunting beauty it surrounds me with.
I was given the cold shoulder yesterday, and was reminded that rejection hurts. That people are not always reasonable nor kind. That many people do not share my passion for getting to the bottom of things.
Because we really don't get much time. Because there is already too much pain in the world. I choose to face my fears. I choose to open up even though I am so scared of rejection. The outcome may have been poor, but I am still proud of myself.
More and more I am blessed with a well-centered inwardness that allows me to be outward. More and more I embrace Whitman and his sincerity. More and more I embrace Stevens and his revelation through obscurity.
(Midlake just gives me chills. Another song that really resonates with me today is their "The Courage of Others". But really I could just listen to all of their songs all day. Okay. I can't help it. Here's one more if you've the time.)
Just to let you know, I enjoyed listening to this music. I may need to spend more time at delving into your blog & responding more, once I finish re-inventing my house for our great festive gathering.
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